I know what you guys are thinking “Wasn’t she going to blog about her traveling?” “Where did she go? She just stopped blogging.” So much was just going on at the time and not exactly according to plan, I wasn’t inspired to write anything,( and one should never act outside of inspiration) and things just didn’t exactly go according to plan. Basically here is how the story goes. I was on top of the world, exploring the west coast, falling in love with California, and then… I met a boy… and let’s just say it all went downhill from there. Now, how relatable is that? As to avoid speaking too ill of this guy, I won’t go into too many details. But aside from my car getting broken into in San Francisco, and the A/C in my van going out as I was driving through death valley, both costing entirely too much, he was a huge reason in my decision for turning my 4-month trip into 3 months and heading home early. Where I sold my Sun City tickets in El Paso, and left behind certain places I planned to explore, yet never had the opportunity to. But hey, at the time I was falling for this guy, he really manipulated me to believe he was the one, and it was a decision I was willing to make for him. I’ve certainly learned my lesson.
Overal my trip was amazing though. Yeah, not exactly how I wanted things to go, but I really got a taste of what freedom felt like. From window shopping at all the crystal and metaphysical shops in Sedona, and connecting with locals at a small karaoke bar. To the wind blowing in my hair as I stood on a narrow ledge on top of the Grand Canyon, in awe of its utter magnificence. To then attending my first rave and EDC in Las Vegas, spending the day walking down the strip refilling my refillable cup with frozen fruity alcoholic beverages, right after spending the night under the Electric Sky. Experiencing Pride for the first time in the best city to experience it in because of its enormous LGBT community, San Francisco! Gazing at a trillion stars with fellow brothers and sisters in the woods of Oregon. Waking up to a perfect view of the space needle in downtown Seattle. To then eating vegan pastries and food truck sandwiches while exploring the city in Portland. Jumping in the cleansing McCloud Falls in Mount Shasta, the Root Chakra of the earth Listening to my boyfriend at the time sing and play his guitar while we sat on the beach next to the Santa Monica Pier. And lastly, Poke Bowls and gift shop shopping off the beach of San Diego. It was a huge adventure, I loved waking up feeling like the world was my oyster, where I would ask myself “What City/State do you want to go to today?” I Loved that feeling I got when I arrived at a city that I’ve always wanted to go to, even if I discovered I wasn’t actually fond of it. I just felt like I had accomplished something. I no longer had to wonder what that place was like! I loved the uncertainty. I still dream of the west coast and California often. My heart and soul just wants to explore, I’ll always be an Adventurer in my heart. Being able to go on that trip was the greatest experience of my life, and I can’t wait for another opportunity to arise where I get to do it again.
Everything changed for me in 2017. It was like once the year started, everything was put into momentum to catalyze me, I attended music festivals, something I had never done before. I met like-minded friends that are more than just friends, they’re soul family. I traveled and explored the west coast, I met new people, I saw places I’ve never seen, I did things I’ve never done, I discovered new music, and a new appreciation for music, I pretty much stumbled upon a whole new life that was always meant for me. Everything was new in 2017, it was magical, transforming, tumultuous and everything that I absolutely needed so that I could become more of who I truly am. I lost myself for a while there during my 3-month relationship, but I learned a lot from that too. I gained an appreciation for myself that I never had before that relationship. I never desired my true self or my own love more than I had before in my life after losing it in that experience. 2017 was nothing but a gift Through the ups, the downs, and everything in between, I know it provided that I needed so that I would be prepared for what I know 2018 will bring me. With rituals on new years eve instead of champagne, to a full moon on New Years Day, 2018 is already off to a magical start for me.( 2+0+1+8=11 a master number) Prior to 2017 all I wanted was to fall in love. What 2017 taught me was that I don’t need some boy to fall in love, rather there is so much in this world that you can fall in love with. In 2018, and for the rest of my life, I am going to fall in love. I am going to fall in love with uncertainty. I am going to fall in love with life. I am going to fall in love with myself. I can almost smell the blessings you have waiting for me this year Goodbye 2017, That you for all that you blessed me with. It was magical and the first year where I actually lived. I’ll never forget it.
Loving you all, Kida